My hair that is. You see, for years I've had extensions. You know, that fake (well, actually it's real, just not mine) hair that everyone on TV has? I got it a few years ago. My hair was always thinner than I wanted (why couldn't my legs have that problem?!), and when I started doing TV regularly, I decided I might as well join my cohorts in enhancing what God didn't give me.
I'm over them. Sure I think they were pretty, and made me feel more feminine and confident, but they also made me insecure at the same time. Having to tell my boyfriend to be careful of them, worrying that someone would see them if it was windy out. One day last week they just started to come undone, and I realized it was time to let them go.
I'm just fine the way I am. I don't need extra hair to feel amazing. My hair doesn't define me. It's just an accessory. Don't get me wrong, I am a proponent of doing what you need to do to feel good about yourself. Sometimes that's permanent, and sometimes it's temporary, like extensions. I needed them at the moment to feel confident on TV, but now I know all I need is within me. My knowledge (and hopefully my sense of humor) is why I'm there.
So I'm releasing a crutch, and it feels awesome. What's your crutch? What are you using to boost your self esteem that may not truly be a part of you? Ever try going without it? Even temporarily? It's pretty liberating.
A couple weeks ago I went on my first matchmaker set up date by a friend in the industry. We were at a conference together and she just HAD to set me up with a guy who was a prospective client. She described his energy more than his physical appearance and I was intrigued! Sexy, strong, manly, and confident? Sure, sign me up! We went out, and he was nothing like I normally date looks-wise. Not even close. We had a great date though, and spent 4 hours laughing and connecting. There was a decent kiss at the end, and then nothing. For days. Weird. I reached out to my matchmaker friend for feedback (a definite bonus of this service, there is always closure!) and apparently he didn't think there was enough chemistry. Ouch! Enough chemistry for what? To run off and get married? Sure, I'll agree with that one. Not even enough to go on a second date? Well, that's just lame.
You see, I've had my fair share of terrible first dates, and I know through my clients what a terrible first date looks like. You have NOTHING to say to each other. You know you want to leave before the bread basket hits the table. An hour is painfully long.
I also know what a great first date looks like! You are never at a loss for words. You laugh, you listen, your food tastes better, and you leave with a smile on your face.
So how does chemistry fit into all this?
Chemistry is an intangible connection. Primarily physical, that draws you subconsciously to someone. It's hard to define, easily shaken, and equally possible to grow and lose. Have you ever met someone you really liked, had amazing chemistry with them, and then realized they were an awful person? That chemistry wanes. On the flip side, have you ever met someone, felt NO chemistry, and then felt a pull once you got to know them? It grows all the time.
What I learned from my mismatch is two fold: 1) We are way too quick to judge on a first date. Waaaay too quick. A second (or third) date with someone you have will never kill you. At the least, you could end up with a new friend. 2) Be open to people who are not your type. I ran into my date online, and I can tell you honestly that if he messaged me, I would have ignored him. It's not nice to say, but it's true. Having met him in person, my perception of him changed completely. Be open to connecting with people who don't fit your mold.
Chemistry is great to have, even essential. My plea is that you give it a chance to grow.